I’m sitting in a pool of clueless calm. Never before have I felt so blind to what’s next in my life, whilst being so certain that I’m exactly where I need to be.
In my mind, the Gods are playing THE most epic chess game with my life. Slapping pieces around like champions, hot under the collar with sweat as they shimmy pieces across the board, getting everything lined up like a pack of benevolent galactic bosses. 😅🤣👍
I was planning on going to my co-author book launch in Vancouver in just over two weeks but I’m now sensing that my ego may have hijacked this trip, rather than my soul. And whilst I love all my cutie patutie aspects, I’m not sure if I’m willing to spend 3-5K on an ego hit to feel cool on an author panel or at Hilton Summit book signings.
But it’s getting close to decision crunch time. And I’ll be honest – a part of me loves the excitement of not knowing what’s gonna happen. I’m open to miracles and have told the universe that if I’m 100% meant to go to Vancouver, then I need hectic signs and support. Go nuts universe – knock yourself out babydoll. 😅😅🤣🤣
And in theory, I could go. I have enough funds and if I choose to, I could use them to go to this slick event and get my Posh Aaila Spice on. I even bought a groovy AF jumpsuit ready for stage. But what’s happened now is that my soul is getting real with me and making me run my decisions through it like a DEEP TRUTH bouncer. And once things get run through my soul, zero BS remains. 😅😉👍
I went to Vancouver for one day in my early twenties and loved it. So, I know the vibe and a part of me would love to go another round. But another part of me is kinda ‘meh’ about the whole thing. Almost like it’s a distraction from other steps that are calling me more. Other places and experiences.
And the places that are really calling me right now are Spain, India and Namibia. The order keeps changing but they are definitely the three hottest contenders off the block:
India for yoga and ayurveda.
Spain for a magical exploration of A Coruna where I spent one of the top 10 days of my life.
And – Namibia where I have a life purpose node line and ache to spend time volunteering in a big 5 game park.
And yes – I could definitely spend a week to a month in Vancouver, enjoying the beautiful Jupiter line vibes of success, fun and good career juju. But I’m just not sure if I need to. 🐣
If I wasn’t planning a big life change involving permanent relocation, I’d go for a week and just enjoy the experience as a gift. But, truth is, my soul bouncer wants me to get very real about how to transition into this new life. And I think this means being willing to let things go if they’re a distraction from the bigger plan.
Over the next few weeks, there are a LOT of moving pieces. I’ll be putting my tiny house on the market to fund my transition to living overseas. It’ll give me a safety buffer so I can make decisions from a place of peace rather than fear. But – I have no idea what I’ll get for it or when it’ll sell. So – the $3-5k Canada chunk may be much better spent on India, Namibia or Spain.
Truth is – I’ve had enough drama to rally The Titanic. And whilst I love myself through all my choices, now I’m way more drawn to bone deep fulfilment than chaos and drama. I’d rather sit happy and shine my good juju into the world while I dance and sing and write and share and just be with nature and magic.
As I get older, there’s less need to look shiny or prove anything. Now – I just wanna follow my soul callings, and celebrate being alive on this rockin’ planet, day after day. Like a magical sparkly unicorn. 🦄😁💗🥰
So – for now, I wait. I wait for the Gods to shimmy the next pieces. I wait for the clarity to land. I stay anchored in my peace. And I stay true to who I am every step of the way.
Until next time you gorgeous soul – sending love from my heart to yours xx 💗🦄✨
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